Right.
Body did not enjoy the hair dresser. I appreciate that, and have given Body lots of rest, including going to bed early last night. Body then woke up at 9am so I do not quite understand why it can’t sit up if it won’t let me sleep either. Body is unreasonable. Body is like lady before her period. ALL THE TIME.
As the wedding approaches (26 hours to go) I am a bag of nerves. I think I probably pulled some hairs out last night on the phone to MindReader. I don’t actually know what would happen if I went beyond my limits but I think it may involve collapsing and/or fainting.
I have become increasingly neurotic about the smallest of details (you told me I’d be at the church ten minutes early not twenty) and have become obsessive to the point of psychotic on the subject of sleep (I am grateful the dogs have been sent away but what if people make a lot of noise when having their hair done?). This is all aside from the fact that I have to take my own BREAD. I think if I met me, I would think I was a big loser.
I am not trying to be a bitch, and nor do I think it’s my wedding day, but I am feeling nobody quite understands how scary it is to be far, far too ill to do something and to do it anyway. People with flu do not go to weddings, and that is essentially what I have, except it’s lasted for 7 months.
Above all, I wonder why MindReader told me there was a spider in his living room last night.
Ok, big breath first. Second, realize that you’re fully entitled to feel the way you do. Third, we all believe in you and know you can do this if you put your mind to it. We’ve seen that much strength in the months you’ve endured and know you have it. Fourth, while this is a valiant effort and terribly nice of you, if you hit a brick wall and simply can’t finish that race, I suspect that Mindreader appreciates the vast amount of thought/effort/emotion that has gone into simply trying to do this for him and will appreciate it and you all the more, even if you have to bow out.
Keep the faith, BG — you’re a heck of a woman and you’ll figure it out. To hell with the detractors and doubters!
Ok, big breath first. Second, realize that you’re fully entitled to feel the way you do. Third, we all believe in you and know you can do this if you put your mind to it. We’ve seen that much strength in the months you’ve endured and know you have it. Fourth, while this is a valiant effort and terribly nice of you, if you hit a brick wall and simply can’t finish that race, I suspect that Mindreader appreciates the vast amount of thought/effort/emotion that has gone into simply trying to do this for him and will appreciate it and you all the more, even if you have to bow out.
Keep the faith, BG — you’re a heck of a woman and you’ll figure it out. To hell with the detractors and doubters!
You are not neurotic! Stress is not your friend these days. MR will understand if you can’t go. I think you are being too hard on yourself. Just wanting to go counts a lot.
You are not neurotic! Stress is not your friend these days. MR will understand if you can’t go. I think you are being too hard on yourself. Just wanting to go counts a lot.
Also, You haven’t “quit” college, it is on hold for now. Dear God, I hope you do not collapse during this event. Have you come to any conclusions about MR and his spider?
Also, You haven’t “quit” college, it is on hold for now. Dear God, I hope you do not collapse during this event. Have you come to any conclusions about MR and his spider?
What tarsi said. You’re giving it your best shot, and that’s more than most people would do under the circumstances! Even if you don’t make it all the way through, you will *get* through (if that makes any sense), and I am pretty sure MindReader would be the first there to support you if you start feeling a bit ill. I’m thinking of you all weekend, dear.
What tarsi said. You’re giving it your best shot, and that’s more than most people would do under the circumstances! Even if you don’t make it all the way through, you will *get* through (if that makes any sense), and I am pretty sure MindReader would be the first there to support you if you start feeling a bit ill. I’m thinking of you all weekend, dear.
Thank you all so much, every single one of your comments brought tears to my eyes. You are my online support group
I have blogged about the wedding, refresh if you can’t see it, and am off for a well earned bath and sleep!
xxxx
Thank you all so much, every single one of your comments brought tears to my eyes. You are my online support group
I have blogged about the wedding, refresh if you can’t see it, and am off for a well earned bath and sleep!
xxxx
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